so many things i wished for you
the care and love i'd give to you
i've done it all just to ensure
you'd have a life that's good and pure
the thoughts that eat away at me
i've worked on them, for clarity
you don't deserve a past of pain
the weight of darkness and of shame
all the sweets and treats for you
whether you like pink or you like blue
you'd be so loved, so endlessly
higher than the sky and deeper than the sea
my heart would burst from so much love
yet you remain far and above
you never chose to come to me
and that's okay, it's what's meant to be
but, just know that i thought of you
and the world i'd give to you
the care, the love, the support and smiles
we'd travel all over, miles and miles
i'd teach you how to bake and cook,
create the sweetest reading nook
all the games we didnt play
no goodnights where we got to pray
no birthday candles to blow out
no cheers or cries or baby pouts
the pain of this, too much to bear
it's easier to pretend I didn't care
the time has passed and it's okay
in my heart you'll always stay.
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